cyberdysk

7/15/2025

Yesterday I wrote some actual words in a project for the first time in months. I don't know why I feel so reluctant to do things that I love, but it has become a real issue. I also got some inspiration for a new story, but I think I am going to try outlining it before I start working on it (something I've never done before) and see if that makes me a bit faster. I am a really slow writer, mostly because I line edit while I am working (a nasty habit that I can't kick). I signed up for Trackbear becuase I watched a couple people on youtube who use it. Idk how long it has been around, but I just heard about it. I'm hoping that this motivates me to actually make a habit of writing. I might post some stuff here, depending on if I actually finish anything.

Media recs:

  • The Clipse album is fantastic, obviously. They've been doing tons of interviews for the rollout so I've been enjoying hearing about their inspirations and ideas.
  • Watched the new Superman movie a couple days ago, and it rocked. Reminded me very much of Welling's superman in Smallville (which I'm rewatching with my friend becuase it also rocks). Just a feel good superhero movie with a Superman that actually feels kind and human. The criticisms I've seen have largely been saying that it's corny. C'mon, you're watching a superhero movie based off of comic books. The source material is a corn factory; grow up and hop off Snyder's dick. Anyway, go watch it. I might write a longer review at some point.
  • Was trawling through the new releases and found BELOVED by GIVEON. I haven't heard any of their other stuff, but this was smooth and moody, perfect for a low-key vibe.
  • I've never been super into Monaleo, but We On Dat tickles my ears in a way she hasn't before.

7/8/2025

I'm finally back to developing this site. I really did miss playing around with things so I am very glad to be back after a sizable absence. This last term was not necessarily that difficult and I did well in all three of my classes, but something took it out of me. I was just exhausted every day and wanted to do nothing but sleep. I lost motivation to go to class like week two, and considering that was the first term ever that I had no mandatory attendance classes, it does not bode well for the rest of my academic career. All this to say that I am commited to doing more regular updates and summer term is off to an okay start (two 8 week classes is kinda crazy tho).

Media recommendation time!

  • New Clipse album on the 11th!!! I am super excited for it. Ngl it took me a few listens to warm up to Ace Trumpets, but I'm rocking with it now, though I still think So Be It is much superior (that sample... peak).
  • Recently picked up a cd of The Catheters' Static Delusions and Stone-Still Days that I've been really enjoying on my commute.
  • I'm not in love with Soul Asylum's Let Your Dim Light Shine, but String of Pearls and a couple others from it are pretty good.
  • Watched Suicide Club (2001) for the first time a few days ago and was instantly in love with it. It felt like if Kurosawa's Pulse took itself much less seriously, in not necessarily a good or bad way. I don't know if I totally got everything, but it definitely warrants a rewatch.
  • My tape of I Saw the TV Glow came yesterday and I am so excited (and also dreading) to watch it again. Watching it kinda feels like you're being punched in the gut but gently and you're also having war flashbacks. I felt a genuinely crushing feeling of dread for the entire runtime, but the movie is fantastic and I consider it a must-see.