cyberdysk

8/3/2025

This time of year always makes me anxious for fall to start. Summer is probably my least favorite season, I just don't do well in the heat. I've started watching more movies again (mostly horror) after having a pretty light couple of months. There is a challenge on Letterboxd to watch 100 horror movies in 92 days, that covers August, September, and October, that I'm going to attempt. Some really nice women at an estate sale let me dig through their unsorted boxes of VHS, so I got 8 for 50 cents a piece. Again, mostly horror that I've loved.

It is kind of weird because I have always rushed the arrival of fall and Halloween, but this year it seems everyone is. Perhaps people just want an escape from the political climate. I don't really think that it is the ultimate sign of overconsumption or failing capitalism that some people think it is, but it is definitely a sign of something. I'm seriously considering getting an AMC membership so I go to the theatre more often... but I get an uncomfortable feeling when I spend money, any money on things that I don't need. I'm not flat broke by any means but I do still live with my parents so I can afford college. Two more years until I'm free of the shackles of an institution I'm volutarily spending a lot of money to attend.

some good shit:

  • I didn't realize the new Wisp album, If Not Winter, came out on the first, it fucks unbelievably hard. Perfect headphone music to lose yourself in.
  • Re-read Giovanni's Room, James Baldwin is perhaps the best thinker to have ever lived. Beautifully written story about love and hate and denial of oneself. Some quotes in there will stick with me forever.
  • Also almost done with my re-read of The Haunting of Hill House, Shirley Jackson the woman that you are. The best example ever of using characters to build the tension and the horror. I'm going to watch the Netflix show after I finish.
  • Gothic and Lolita Psycho was an unexpected gem. The fight choreography was insanely good for such a low budget movie. If you are into low-budget Japanese splatter horror, check this one out.

7/15/2025

Yesterday I wrote some actual words in a project for the first time in months. I don't know why I feel so reluctant to do things that I love, but it has become a real issue. I also got some inspiration for a new story, but I think I am going to try outlining it before I start working on it (something I've never done before) and see if that makes me a bit faster. I am a really slow writer, mostly because I line edit while I am working (a nasty habit that I can't kick). I signed up for Trackbear becuase I watched a couple people on youtube who use it. Idk how long it has been around, but I just heard about it. I'm hoping that this motivates me to actually make a habit of writing. I might post some stuff here, depending on if I actually finish anything.

Media recs:

  • The Clipse album is fantastic, obviously. They've been doing tons of interviews for the rollout so I've been enjoying hearing about their inspirations and ideas.
  • Watched the new Superman movie a couple days ago, and it rocked. Reminded me very much of Welling's superman in Smallville (which I'm rewatching with my friend becuase it also rocks). Just a feel good superhero movie with a Superman that actually feels kind and human. The criticisms I've seen have largely been saying that it's corny. C'mon, you're watching a superhero movie based off of comic books. The source material is a corn factory; grow up and hop off Snyder's dick. Anyway, go watch it. I might write a longer review at some point.
  • Was trawling through the new releases and found BELOVED by GIVEON. I haven't heard any of their other stuff, but this was smooth and moody, perfect for a low-key vibe.
  • I've never been super into Monaleo, but We On Dat tickles my ears in a way she hasn't before.

7/8/2025

I'm finally back to developing this site. I really did miss playing around with things so I am very glad to be back after a sizable absence. This last term was not necessarily that difficult and I did well in all three of my classes, but something took it out of me. I was just exhausted every day and wanted to do nothing but sleep. I lost motivation to go to class like week two, and considering that was the first term ever that I had no mandatory attendance classes, it does not bode well for the rest of my academic career. All this to say that I am commited to doing more regular updates and summer term is off to an okay start (two 8 week classes is kinda crazy tho).

Media recommendation time!

  • New Clipse album on the 11th!!! I am super excited for it. Ngl it took me a few listens to warm up to Ace Trumpets, but I'm rocking with it now, though I still think So Be It is much superior (that sample... peak).
  • Recently picked up a cd of The Catheters' Static Delusions and Stone-Still Days that I've been really enjoying on my commute.
  • I'm not in love with Soul Asylum's Let Your Dim Light Shine, but String of Pearls and a couple others from it are pretty good.
  • Watched Suicide Club (2001) for the first time a few days ago and was instantly in love with it. It felt like if Kurosawa's Pulse took itself much less seriously, in not necessarily a good or bad way. I don't know if I totally got everything, but it definitely warrants a rewatch.
  • My tape of I Saw the TV Glow came yesterday and I am so excited (and also dreading) to watch it again. Watching it kinda feels like you're being punched in the gut but gently and you're also having war flashbacks. I felt a genuinely crushing feeling of dread for the entire runtime, but the movie is fantastic and I consider it a must-see.